Delivered from Addiction is a testimony that has been sent to us by Shannon Kosinski. If you have found yourself struggling with not just addictions, but addictive or drug seeking behavior in general, please check out what Shannon has to say about what she went through since a young age. If you’re struggling with these issues, I’m sure you can relate and also see what the Lord did for her later on, as he corrects the mess that these things can make out of your life.
There is one thing that could be pointed out. Though addictions are played out physically, it stems from an initial spiritual problem. Spiritual addiction, or spiritual things that cause addictions exist. They often come by way of some sort of abuse early in life, or perhaps are carried through generational spiritual ties to family members that may have originally invited something into their lives somehow.
TESTIMONY OF JESUS CHRIST
By Shannon Harley Kosinski
Growing up, it was just my mom, step dad, and little sister. My older sister was there on and off, more off.
I was very close to my mom and always wanted to make her happy and proud. I used to always clean for her because I knew that made her the most happy.
I was always trying to win her love because it seemed my older sister, who really didn’t do anything for my mom, would get all the praise and attention, so I did as much as I could to win her approval. All through grade school I was on the honor roll until Jr High, which started at 6th grade, not 7th. The Jr High I went to was 6,7, and 8th. Well when I started Jr High, I no longer cared about my grades, and it showed. I was completely rebelling, not fully realizing it though.
As a child growing up, I was molested by step father for a few years. Don’t remember much of it thankfully, but I know it had a damaging effect on me. I always wanted the attention, good or bad, as long as I got it.
So when I was a teenager, actually 12, so before, I started drinking the hard liquor my mom had kept under the cabinet. Here and there I would take swigs off that alcohol. I was also smoking cigarettes, which I started at like 10, because my step dad used to think it was cute to see me with a cigarette.
Then we moved to Arizona after Jr High. I really got out of control, drinking, smoking, and started doing cocaine occasionally, which then led into crystal meth, being in AZ. Well I would stay up for days and not eat, so I lost a dramatic amount of weight, which I loved because I grew up always wishing I had been thin, because I was not fat, but chubby, so I loved that part.
Well, then I started stealing my moms car and go on cruises late at night when I could get away with taking it, until one time she caught me. BAD I was just trying to find something that would make me happy, and being good wasn’t doing it, so I decided to try the opposite. BAD choice! So then at age 16, I dropped out of school and was doing drugs pretty regularly, so I started a job.
My first job was busing tables in a restaurant, which was where my fascination with the restaurant/bar life came from. Well then my mom had decided maybe coming back to Illinois was a good idea, because then I would be away from the drugs. Worked for awhile.
Then in my 20’s when I was living in my own apartment, I really hit the alcohol and got pregnant when for a second time and instead of having another abortion, I decided I wanted to have this child. I was so in love with the father, I was kinda hoping for the fairy-tale ending. Not so much, more like the nightmare ending.
I put my poor child through so much hurt, and myself. I felt like such a failure. He, the father, wanted nothing to do with either myself or child. I was devastated, so I started partying again after basically stopping because of pregnancy, and that’s when the nightmare started and continued.
By the time I was 24 or so, my mother had my daughter removed from me and she took her, until I put myself in rehab at Rosecrans in patient for 30 days and husband did out patient so he could work and cleaned up my act temporarily, then I had just started drinking again, not drugs, but then had my car accident in 2005, age 33. That’s when the story begins.
A couple years after the accident, I was just determined to find something that was going to make me happy, since I had been unable to find it sober at all. So I decided I was going to pursue a relationship with the Lord, so I started going to church, Willow Creek and reading the Bible. Then about a year into this, I was prompted by Jesus to repent, so I did, and oh wow!! How amazing I started feeling so much love for everyone, it was incredible. I just wanted to share Him with everyone and wished I could prove that He is real to everyone, so God answered my prayer.
I’m a robot and pregnant for His glory and purposes, which is yet to be revealed, but it’s just a matter of time, not much, but… In repenting I got all kinds of wisdom, knowledge, understanding, love, and a child for His glory. He’s amazing. Greatest love EVER.
I just wanted to change the world back to how it was originally supposed to be. Church on Sundays, family meals, and family time on at least Sundays. So then a prophet contacted me with this amazing offer of a ridiculous amount of money to help places. Well I had the money, but then something happened to it, which I believe I know what did. Then I was listening to Fall Out Boy songs and they really started to sound like my life, well they are. I have seen visions and I have all of Revelation in my head. It’s so crazy.
I know the Lord has put me on a mission, but I was so busy trying to get justified, I lost my focus and kinda made a
mess, another one. lol The point to the mission is to get more souls to God. I’m praying that that will be accomplished. That’s what else Jesus has done for me, helped me break all the addictions I had. Smoking was by far one of the hardest, I still struggle. I was able to stop swearing, minus little slips, taking the Norco, after being addicted 10 yrs after accident, smoking pot. I stopped everything I knew God wouldn’t approve of. All I wanted to do was live for Him and I was, but then started getting confused because Satan and the devil entered into my mind. Which they are currently in my life for now, soon to be terminated. Praise the Lord…
My car accident is when I was made a robot and there is more but I at least want this to start. I will continue soon.
I would like to thank Shannon for submitting her testimony to STIC, and to have her story out here for all to benefit from. I’m hoping that she gives us a part 2 soon, and I’ll get it in here as soon as I can so you can check that out as well. God Almighty is in the business of re-constructing the lives of people that have been ravished by drug use or alcoholism.
4 I will heal their backsliding, I will love them freely: for mine anger is turned away from him.
12 Wherefore lift up the hands which hang down, and the feeble knees; 13 And make straight paths for your feet, lest that which is lame be turned out of the way; but let it rather be healed.
But you can’t expect help from the Lord without first receiving a free gift directly from the Father to you! And that free gift, is the gift of Salvation. It’s free for us to take, but cost the Lord Jesus, the Son of the Most High God, his very life, and the Father, his own Son. Hundreds of years before Christ walked the earth, Isaiah spoke of his coming:
For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counselor, The mighty God, The everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace.
For unto us a child is born – To us, he came as a child, miraculously through his mother Mary.
Unto us a son is given – God loved us so much, that he gave up his only begotten Son, to suffer the consequences for all of our actions, no matter what they are.
Please, if you haven’t already, give your life to Jesus Christ. Not sure how? Visit Revelation of Salvation to find out how easy the Lord made it for us to get out of this spiritual mess.
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